Superman

I am writing this in my oncall room

Mixed feelin now because just finish my round at the wards and i misses home so much

Finish attending unstable patient

Dunno whether i am doing the right thing or not

Well this picture taken during my emergency department posting

Thrilling yet wonderful feeling

Thruthfully told ya

I never never regret being here

I never regret being a doctor

I never regret i didnt fight back my parents will to make me pursue this doctorate

I never regret turning down offer being architecture at oversea

I never regret i didnt reply offer being a painter for few agency

The only i regret is i didnt look back at my garage on that night

I walk through lonely night without knowing someone was watching me

He

Superman for every daughter

I am sorry that being a bad daughter is the only way to being myself

Why cant i say that i love you

I think i am just like you

While seeing other sibling hugs you, kiss you

I on the other side of the world

Turn my head from you

When you call my name

I know you want me to look at your face

But this cold heart just walk away

That is what bother me at night 

What pains me the most

Because you are just a great dad 

A great person ever happen in my life

Even i live with only 50 scent during my primary school (at that time it was a huge amount for us)

And even no allowence during my secondary school

You make sure i dont starve 

You with your worrisome face, left for work and during lunch, 

you come back to my school and give me money

And even say sorry that u cant give the money earlier

I shut my mouth

Cannot talk while seeing you leaving me with your old motorcycle

I feel so hurt that i am full with pride

Guess i really a cold person

Even i rode those damn motorcycle to school

You make sure it was in a good condition before i start riding

You make sure i arrive safely

And if it was out if gas, you like

Really really really like superman

A first person will help me

Appear out of now where

Up to the point, i think you are having flexi shift thou you r govern servant

And even in my university days

We cant afford much

Only secondhand laptop

You are so excited while giving them to me

While i received it emotionless

But you kept praising me as a good daughter that bear with her family

You just happy

So happy that your child enter medical school, because it was your dream

While my dream during that time

Was all about me

But abah is all about his child

And even now 

Everytime i arrive home late up to 1am or 2am, you make sure to wait for me.

And i take it for granted

Not even say thank you

I walk straight to my room

I am sorry 

Even it was a small house, crammed motorcycle, worn out shoes, penniless student, 

I received so much love

These days old times kept rolling to me

Asking which year i want to go back

And i kept giving the same answer

I want to be your small child again

And you appear to be big in my eyes

I guess

Time is really aging person